I often feel like a pendulum. One day feeling like I’ve got things pulsing at a nice rhythm, and the next feeling like I’m wildly swinging out of control. It is at the extremities of my swing, at the edge of it, where I feel the most potential for growth. Perhaps this is because these are the moments that are easiest to recognize as areas for growth. I like swinging rhythmically most and want so badly to contain it, but recognize that when I do, I’m settling into a pattern. One without change.
When I can label the polarities of my swinging, I have taken the first step toward change. I often underestimate the power of awareness. All that is needed to create movement within myself is a gentle awareness. When I can recognize the co-existing polarities of an issue, I can then start to postulate about what it might be like in its wholeness. We have come to polarize so many of our issues, taking out the grey areas. In my mind, the grey areas are where we exist in reality. The most fertile space is where the two polarities come together, and when I can hold them both and allow something new, a new wholeness to exist, there is the opportunity to birth something new from within.